I believe we have certain people in our life who make the journey easier. These people understand what it means to go through tough times and can relate to you. I had the amazing privilege to have this wonderful woman in my home today and we sat and talked and cried. Janet is family, but we talked as if no time had passed since the last time we saw each other which was 13 years ago. We have kept in contact over the years, and especially lately as their son was diagnosed with DIPG.
Last night as I was pondering how our coffee date would go this morning and praying for wisdom and words of encouragement, my heart broke inside of me. I felt like I was not the person to give encouragement to her. I immediately gave it over to God though and asked Him to give the words to speak and also asked our church ladies to cover us in prayer as we met and talked this morning. God is amazing! We had such a great conversation and I absolutely enjoyed every moment of it. It was just too short of a time and I wished all day that we could have chatted for longer. My heart has been heavy for them and their little family and the struggles they face on a daily basis. But like she said this morning, there should be no comparing struggles. We all have struggles and they are all very real to us, even though they are very different.
I have been struggling emotionally and spiritually lately and it has been a very real battle. There is also the struggle of changing meds for our boys and the challenges that brings. I have tried to be the listening ear that my friends have needed lately and I have been giving of myself a lot and feel the need to be filled with encouragement myself. Our chat this morning did refresh me a lot though and I am so glad we were able to do that. I only hope and pray that less time will pass until we see each other again. It has been on my heart very heavy to make a trip to Manitoba this spring/summer, so I think that is going to be something that we will be planning for.
I was singing a song this afternoon that has been on my heart lately and it’s called ‘Jesus bring the rain’. As I was singing it, I just sat and sobbed. Are we really willing to do as the writer says “bring me anything that brings you glory, and I know there’ll be days when this life brings me pain but if that’s what it takes to praise you, then Jesus, bring the rain.” Those words really sunk in. I am so tired of being in pain and hurting over issues in my life and issues in people’s lives around me. I give God all honour and glory and praise, but if I am supposed to be in this pain in order to give it all to God and praise Him all the more, am I willing to withstand it? Am I strong enough? How much can I handle? The answer is, I am only as strong as the strength he provides every day. I can handle as much as God allows and sometimes he gives me way more than I can handle so that He will be glorified, because at the end of the day, it’s all about Him; not us, not me, not you.
God is almighty and worthy of all our praise. He hurts when we hurt, he feels our broken hearts but I believe we have a purpose in all of that and that is to show the world just a little more kindness. Let the fruit of the Spirit be manifested in our lives every day! What a difference we can make with Christ by our side. That doesn’t mean bad things won’t happen. It’s a fallen world. It’s a bad place out there. But, we are called to be a light to everyone. How far are we willing to go? Do we quit when the going gets tough, or are we willing to get down on our knees and beg God for strength knowing He will provide if we ask?
Be kind. Be compassionate and let the light of Christ shine in you and through you as you go about your daily life. Also, just hug your loved ones a little tighter today. We never know just how much time we will have with them. Make each day count. Let the little things go. In all things give all the glory to God!
“My only hop is in You” -Psalm 39:7
Please keep Dan & Janet and their 2 precious children in your prayers.